Sunday, April 21, 2024

the Rock and buyer's remorse

Some guess that Dwayne has political ambitions of his own, hence the return to the center:

Then there's this:

is English just a form of French?

In recent news, a French scholar declared that English is merely badly pronounced French. But is the reality really that simple? Despite the numerous Latinate words, English is usually classified as a Germanic language. The following video takes a reasonable stance on the issue:

the hate-watching has begun!

I just watched the first episode of Season 1 of "Star Trek: Picard." I didn't think the episode was all that bad, to tell you the truth. It didn't introduce all of the main characters in the series quite yet, but it laid out the basic premise and seemed to have a lot of potential. I assume the rest of Season 1 and all of Season 2 will drop the ball, though, so I'm bracing for impact. I'll be sure to write a review once I've made it through the first two seasons. I can say, though, that I now understand one of the main complaints about "Picard," Season 3: the Borg are apparently front and center in this story. They seem to dominate each season's storyline, and Episode 1 of Season 1 ends with a shot of what appears to be an abandoned and refurbished Borg cube being used as a research facility.

Expect a review in a few weeks.

Saturday, April 20, 2024

a message for Trump: "I'm sorry for believing the lies"

Plenty still believe those lies.

BP meds at night?

Regarding whether to take blood-pressure meds at night,

...the Mayo Clinic says:

In the past, many doctors recommended taking blood pressure medication at night because heart attacks happen most often in the early morning hours. However, since blood pressure typically drops at night in people with normal and high levels, it is unnecessary to drop it further.

...and the National Institutes of Health (NIH) say:

This is a robust study that shows that people who take their blood pressure medication at night have better blood pressure control and have reduced risk of a cardiovascular event such as a stroke or heart attack.

I was woozy and feeling faint for most of Friday morning and afternoon after taking my meds, which I think might need to be dialed down. It's possible I'm doing something wrong in terms of timing, but I think it's also likely that, in terms of BP meds, I'm ingesting too much. It's not blood sugar: my BS readings are still high but slowly coming down. It's definitely BP, which was way low (87/67) early Friday afternoon. So, in exploring the logic of the situation, I started wondering about taking my meds at night. The Mayo Clinic's advice, above, makes it seem as if I might fall into a coma if I'm not careful, whereas the NIH's advice suggests there are benefits to switching to a nocturnal schedule. Obviously, I need to read more, but my own thinking is that I'm less of a mess if I take my meds after eating, and since my roughly 16/8 intermittent-fasting schedule (Newcastle-diet version) skews toward the late end of the day, there'll be food in my stomach* by the time I take my meds at night. We'll see how things are in a few days.

Note: this wouldn't even be a consideration were it not for the fact that the number of pills I now take has more than doubled. Before, when I had only six or eight pills (only!), I had no problem taking them in the morning, in the evening, or whenever. My body mass protected me. Now, though, with so many drugs coursing through my system, I can no longer rely on my body mass to blunt the drugs' effects. I also felt that my body needed a break from the onslaught, so I skipped my insulin and pills today and will restart tonight. No wooziness today at all.


*I'd felt a bit woozy before Friday, but the moment I ate something, the brain-fog and vertigo lifted, and I felt somewhat better. Food helps.

UPDATE: I'm not asleep yet, but I took my meds tonight, and I'll be curious to see my numbers in the morning. I can already tell that taking meds at night is the way to go. With a more or less full stomach, I'm not suffering any wooziness whatsoever, and the meds, which have to fight through the food, aren't hitting my body with a sledgehammer. Hey, good call, Kevin!

some Rogan vids

I didn't really hear an active endorsement.

Joe won't get nominated:

a volley from Chris Chappell

Can illegals bear arms?

The Deep State doesn't exist. The Deep State is cool!

The sorry state of the nation:

A question already asked many times:


Disney's civil war:

Why it doesn't pay to be soft on crime:

the converts

"How are there still people who think the person running this country is doing a great job?"

"The precise moment I was no longer a Democrat":

What this second guy says how Obamacare fucked him is important.

girl bosses are at least partly a fantasy

Watch a woman's SWAT team get its ass kicked in competition. As before, this isn't to gloat about how guys are "better" than women, but rather to make a point that some feminists just aren't getting regarding the physical differences between trained men and trained women:

Friday, April 19, 2024

Judge Engoron admits his agenda

This is what they call judicial activism:

when you ban something and end up causing more problems

Stupid laws and bans originate in emotion and don't benefit from deep, long-term thinking:

a few from Doug

Michelle Obama won't be running for office and attempting to "save" the US:

The prospect of suing Letitia James:

When the leftie meets someone with facts at his command:

Joy Behar used to love Trump:

Democrat-on-Democrat rhetoric:

"Satanic agenda":

Trump and Mike Johnson to propose a bill to prevent non-citizen voting in federal elections:

the "world's hardest muscle-up"

A muscle-up is an exercise that begins as a pull-up, then turns into the pushing component of a dip. Here's a YouTube Short on a cruel variant of the muscle-up—one in which you have to stop and freeze at various points during the movement. This was painful to watch.

spot the error!

Seen at ROK Drop:

I wonder if he volunteered for this unit or the ROK military put him in it for publicity reasons?

Highlight the space between the brackets to see the explanation.

[If a sentence begins with "I wonder if/whether..." or "He asked if/whether...", it's making a statement via indirect discourse, not asking a question.

WRONG: I wonder where he went?
RIGHT: I wonder where he went.

When you say "I wonder," you're declaring your mental state.

And what's "indirect discourse"? It's when an utterance is embedded in another utterance. "Direct discourse" involves direct quotes. Here are some examples:

DIRECT: He said, "Sit down."
DIRECT: She wondered, "Would the party be fun?"
DIRECT: He asked, "Are you Sarah Connor?"
DIRECT: "Stay away from that dildo," he advised.

INDIRECT: He told her to sit down.
INDIRECT: She wondered if/whether the party would be fun.
INDIRECT: He asked if/whether she was Sarah Connor.
INDIRECT: He advised her to stay away from that dildo.]

A deeper dive on the if/whether question is here.

PJW on a host of topics

Violent crime by whom? They can't quite bring themselves to say it.

OJ Simpson and lingering racial politics:

The sex offender who couldn't be punished:

Yeesh... Lizzo:

Scottish hate-crime bill a "shit-show":

fixing the Terminator's unmoving eye

Nifty SFX video:

the painfully slow walk

Some walk stats for my Thursday-night stroll:

Starting in Daechi, finishing at Daecheong Station.

I wish the chart showed average speed, not pace.

This was a two-hour creekside walk (no stairs) at about a 3.94-kph speed. Not even 4 kilometers per hour: pretty slow. But this is only my first week back from my second trip to the hospital, so I'll cut myself a little slack. 

As with the Wednesday-night walk, my heart and breathing were both fine. The activity burned almost an extra 800 calories, and my pedometer says I burned 1100 calories for the entire day (over and above my 1800 calories for basal metabolic rate). 2900-ish calories burned can't be bad. And—I forgot to factor in the food I ingested. On the Newcastle diet, that comes to about 800 calories, so really, it's a 2100-calorie deficit per day. That's 14,700 calories per week, or 4.2 pounds of fat (1.9 kg) lost per week. I actually doubt I'll lose that much, mainly because I'm likely to ingest more than 800 calories per day. But I'll lose at least a pound or so a week. We'll see how I am when I do a weigh-in a few days.

And hey—my shoulders didn't feel quite so flabby during tonight's walk, either. The walking helps. It reminds my body what I can do, smooths out the kinks.

I forgot to write, yesterday, about all the frogs ribbiting along the trail. Must be mating season. The frogs were ribbiting lustily tonight as well. My Thursday-night route took me out toward the Han River; I stopped and turned around once I reached the confluence of the Tan Creek and the Han. There's more construction going on along the last kilometer of the Tan before the confluence; construction workers waved us bikers and walkers and joggers along a prescribed path with their stubby, lightsaber-like flashlights. 

This is the perfect moment to be out and walking at night: the air is pleasantly cool without the bite of winter, but it's not as warm as it's going to get once it's late spring. As I mentioned before, I might restart my stairs work this weekend; we'll see. But it's nice to know that life is realigning itself into something approaching normalcy again.

Thursday, April 18, 2024

as predicted: wokeness will cost lives

health update

The pulse oximeter had me at 98% this morning. BP was disconcertingly low at 124/69; I think my meds may be too strong: I feel tired all the time, at a guess from either low BP or low blood sugar. I'm also not used to having my BP this low, and since this state of affairs is due to meds, I didn't earn this as I have in the past. Weight is holding steady at 115.5 kg. I didn't take my blood sugar this morning; I'll do it either late tonight or tomorrow morning. (Yes, I'm aware of the need to take stats at the same time of day.)

I'd be all for nuking Dearborn, MI at this point

As Walsh says: if you hate the US so much, then leave. And stop hypocritically benefitting from the privileges of living in America while trying to destroy my country.

from 1989: a rant directed at Joe Biden

how does this happen?

John Stossel reports on two equally bad phenomena: (1) how laws passed ostensibly to benefit "gig" workers end up making them poorer and more oppressed, and (2) how California's perverse, economically illiterate measures end up being adopted at the federal level:

Styx before the attack on Israel

A big-picture look at Biden's confusingly incoherent attitude toward Iran:

10,000 calories a day and no weight gain

This seems like something to envy at first until you realize it's its own sort of hell:

first attempt at a real walk tonight

Tonight (Wednesday night), I walked the long way home. The major takeaway is that my heart and lungs had no problems at all during the walk: there was no sensation of a skeletal hand squeezing my heart, nor was there any shortness of breath. It was still a tiring walk (I did feel something in my chest after I got home), but I wasn't over-tired at all. 

I'm going to build on this good news by walking every day if possible, and I'll begin rebuilding my heart's strength by restarting the stairs, possibly as soon as this weekend. Walking, combined with the Newcastle diet, will have me losing some weight, I think, if for no other reason than simple calories in, calories out. There's a limit to how effective this will be, but if this is like three years ago, it'll be weeks before I really start to plateau.

Lunch earlier today was breakfast bagels, but they were keto bagels (well, "bagels," really). Being made with a bread that's much heavier than the regular stuff, the resulting sandwiches were hard to choke down. I had to nibble at them. I'll also need to remember, in the future, to make my sandwiches open-faced. There's simply no need for that much bread. 

Here are some pics of what the keto "bagels" are like:

March 30, 2024—keto "bagels" made from keto "baguette" dough... heavy but delicious.

The dough for my keto "baguettes" seemed much more suited for "bagels."

The "bagel" bottoms are smooth...

...but the tops are fairly rough.

Fast-forward to April 17. I ambitiously lay out material for three sandwiches, but I end up eating only two.

Sausage patties... but I used a bit too much xanthan gum in making a keto version of maple syrup (maple extract + erythritol + water + xanthan gum)—the non-keto version of these patties uses brown sugar. The xanthan gum left a slick and gooey texture. Next time, no xanthan gum at all.

"bagels," halved

two eggs over easy

before microwaving

after 'waving (and with a cheat: my boss's blueberry jam)

The blueberry jam turned out not to be so great. I should have brought my own strawberry jam, or I could have made some keto strawberry jam of my own.

I also learned a thing: if you're trying to use a metal cookie cutter as a mold to cook perfectly round eggs, you need to spray the cookie cutter with Pam or coat it with oil first—otherwise the eggs will bind with the hot metal, and when you try to lift the ring off the skillet, the egg will come with it. Double plus ungood. And a rookie mistake.

Wednesday, April 17, 2024

Taiwan, wargaming a China invasion

the dalliance is over, I think

I never mentioned how inflated my stats for March were: I was averaging several tens of thousands of daily visits, and by the end of the month, my visit total was 767,165 (24.7K/day). That's impossibly high and not at all the norm, but it built upon February, when I had 146,738 unique visitors (about 5,060/day). This month, though, I've gone from five-digit site-visit numbers to four-digit numbers, and it wouldn't surprise me if I ended April right back at my usual norm, i.e., a lowly 600-ish visits per day (so far this month, I have 199,454 daily visits over 17 days, an average of about 11.7K visits a day). 

The bots have gotten bored with me, I think, and since they were bots all along, I never really achieved blog-celebrity status. No one came knocking on my door to bask in my "fame," and no special status accrued to me. I continue to labor in obscurity, and my numbers will soon reflect that reality again. I think I have a small, semi-faithful core of viewers/readers who don't read the blog every day, nor do they comment every day, but they're at least a little loyal to what I'm doing, sticking with me through thick and thin... sort of. This really ought to feel like a relief; it certainly never felt the way fame is supposed to feel. That's because it's all artificial. Maybe this is the hollowness of AI.

saw "Dune, Part 2" again last night

I rewatched "Dune, Part 2," this time in the comfort of my own apartment, with no COVID-y people about.* A few scattered thoughts:

  1. Sound design! The movie should definitely win an Oscar for amazingly evocative sound design that puts you in the world—subtle things like the echo-y sound of Harkonnen troops speaking from inside their helmets to the phatic noise of the lasguns (Frank Herbert's terminology, not mine) to the weird, almost Vaderlike noise of the tubes and other apparatus attached to Baron Harkonnen, still unrecovered from Leto's final, fateful, fatal poison attack.
  2. Comedy that won't age well. Stilgar, our main source for humor, has a few scenes that, I think, are going to look cringe-inducing in a few years. Overall, Javier Bardem played the role excellently, so I don't fault him. This is more of a screenwriting issue.
  3. Making Lady Jessica into something like a corruptive, or at least slyly manipulative, force on Arrakis is a mistake. In the book, her intentions are purer. If anything, she's been a rebel against the Bene Gesserit project for years. This change to Jessica's character also sets up a very immature dynamic between her and Paul—Paul, who is on his way to becoming a holy leader of the Fremen, is slotted into the role of the surly teen rebelling against his mother's wishes. It's not a dynamic that dominates the plot, but there's more than a whiff of it, almost as if this rewriting of the Jessica-Paul relationship were a sop to modern audiences (cue Critical Drinker echo).
  4. Another book-based point about Jessica: like most Bene Gesserit, she's trained in scary forms of armed and unarmed combat—what the spooked and reverent Fremen call the weirding way. She has a general's knowledge of strategy and a queen's knowledge of politics, not to mention a trained psychologist's knowledge of the tiniest ins and outs of human nature. Leader, soldier, psychologist, linguist, and philosopher, a Bene Gesserit witch is one of the mightiest characters in Frank Herbert's galaxy. And yet—the most combat Jessica gets in the movie is when she inelegantly bashes a Harkonnen soldier with a rock. Rebecca Ferguson should have been at least as nimble and powerful as her character Ilsa Faust in the Mission: Impossible movies. She should have been tearing apart Harkonnen troops out in the desert sands.
  5. Paul's sandworm ride is, by itself, worth the price of admission. Amazing scene.
  6. I'm still trying to decide how I feel about the changes made to both Chani and the Fremen. Separating the Fremen into northern and southern factions—which doesn't happen in the book—is consistent with the novel's contention that not all Fremen were immediately believers in Paul. Making Chani the focus of the doubters was a plausible change to the story, but this change was made at the cost of making her less personally loyal to Paul. She makes clear, in the movie version, that her love of Paul is conditional, telling him she'll love him "as long as you remain true to yourself." The Fremen, in both the book and the movie, aren't initially that concerned with galactic affairs, and Chani's awareness of the struggle and politicking among the Great Houses is dim at best. Her knowledge of Bene Gesserit manipulation, in the movie, is also unexplained, uncanonical, and a bit problematic. I don't think Villeneuve did too much violence to Chani's character: at least she's no longer blindly loyal. But what we see in the movie is a radical departure from the Chani of the books.
  7. What of Chani's future? In the next book, Dune Messiah, Chani is back with Paul and initially unable to conceive thanks to the contraceptives that Princess Irulan, Paul's wife, has been slipping into Chani's food and drink. Chani is eventually able to break through this attempt to keep her childless (in the first book, she gave birth to a son who was killed during a battle—another plot point that the movies leave out), and she eventually gives birth to Leto and Ghanima before dying in childbirth. Irulan, who had been part of a conspiracy to overthrow Paul, will renounce the conspiracy, repent of her ways, and promise to be Leto and Ghanima's teacher as Paul, blinded by a stone-burner, disappears into the desert and into legend. It will be interesting to see how Denis Villeneuve handles Chani in the third movie, which will be a Shakespearean tragedy.
  8. I failed to note in my review how certain aesthetic elements from HR Giger made it into this version of "Dune," just as they did in David Lynch's version. I'm thinking specifically of certain outdoor scenes on Giedi Prime, the Harkonnen homeworld. Villeneuve's "Dune" was, overall, an immense visual treat.


*That's my working theory: I caught COVID on the crowded subway rides to and from the cinema. It's hard to see another explanation: this was a major break in my commuting routine, and I think I paid the price for putting myself in the petri dish that is the Seoul metro.

Barrow-wights: the creepier side of Tolkien

begone, weakness

My shoulders continue to moan and cry as if they were being pushed to their limits despite the fact that I'm doing basically nothing to them. I'm supposed to meet that older distance-walking couple on Saturday, May 4, which is going to mean busing out Friday night (May 3), then taking a cab either right to the meeting site or to the bottom of the mountain. I told the couple I'd like to meet them somewhere dramatic, so I picked Ihwaryeong. Will I have the strength to walk up that 5K hill in almost two weeks? I wonder. But we'll see. More on this later when I figure out the logistics.

UPDATE: I'll take a bus out to Mungyeong, then a cab out to Yeonpoong-myeon, crash at the local yeogwan for the night, then do the 5K climb to Ihwaryeong the following morning. As I've said several times, the slope isn't that bad despite the distance, and I'll simply stop and rest as needed. The couple will be coming up the other side of the mountain, and we'll hang out at the summit until they're ready to continue. I might go back downhill with them (back the way I came), or I might catch a cab to the nearest bus terminal and let them do their thing. I won't be feeding them lunch on the mountaintop; based on my own experience, we'd be meeting at the summit way before lunch, and besides, I myself never eat a full meal until I'm done for the day: such is the timing of my bowels.

I suppose another option could be to escort the couple back the way I came, then have a meal with them in town if they're okay with that. I imagine this'll be a play-it-by-ear sort of day; the female half of the couple might have Americanized a bit, but I bet she's a nonlinear Korean at heart, so whatever plans I might make for the day will be altered upon first contact. As Mike Tyson said, "Everyone has a plan until they get punched in the mouth." His version of No plan ever survives first contact with the enemy. That casts my meeting with the couple in an overly sinister light, but it's true that Koreans generally improvise because so few of them are capable of linear thought and action when it comes to activities with friends. (To be fair, Koreans can be ruthlessly over-linear in other situations.) Maybe this is why you don't hear much about huge Korean communities in hyperlinear, regimented Switzerland.

E. Jean Carroll and the unregistered firearm

do you trust the polls?

now, here's a crossover

The description says this video was uploaded only two months ago, but I could've sworn I saw this same video several years ago. Here's Vader versus Batman (and friends):

Tuesday, April 16, 2024

the Swiss are big mad and lead the way

Switzerland has had enough of the EU's nonsense.

Reminder: Switzerland is not an EU member.


pulse oximeter, CGM (constant glucose monitor), CGM manual

CGM up close

It was a disappointment to pick up the CGM, which seems a little backward and wonky. It requires initial calibration during its first two hours of use, then calibration every 12 hours after that. At the 15-day mark, you have to get another monitor to attach to your arm, and I guess the calibration has to happen again. I don't recall hearing about any of this with the monitors you get in the US, but maybe clever US marketing covered these troublesome details up. I'll read slowly through the user's manual and learn the machine's ins and outs.

As you see, I also got a pulse oximeter, so I can measure my pulse-ox. I doubt I'll use it often, but at those moments when I'm breathing harder than usual, it might come in handy.

One of the shop staffers spoke broken English, and he insisted on English the entire time. I tried to get him to switch to Korean, but then I thought that it might be better for him to keep speaking in English. While his English could definitely have used some help, he got his points across just fine. His English seemed only a little worse than my Korean.

threaten murder and see what happens

As Liberal Hivemind points out, it's always the liberals who threaten or enact violence, then turn around and claim it's the right that's constantly violent. Projection.

Hell, think about the recently deceased OJ Simpson. Were there conservative riots resulting in billions of dollars of property damage after the criminal-trial verdict? Ah, but how about the Rodney King case? Or the "summer of love"? Which stupid fuckers were rioting then?

What hypocrisy.

remember nutria/le ragondin?

Remember when I went to France in 2018, visiting my buddy Dominique at his bed-and-breakfast in le marais (the swamp/marshes), and learning from his son Tim about how there's a pest there called le ragondin, which Tim described in enough detail for me to realize he was talking about nutria, the same giant rat that lives in the Louisiana bayou? Well, here's a video about the nutria of the bayou, and how people hunt them to protect the ecology:

I'll always remember the pâté de ragondin I had in France. I was apprehensive at first, but who knew a rat could turn out to be so delicious? (It ended up tasting bland and like not much of anything. Still, not bad.)

"Dune, Part 2" will be mine!

My pre-ordered Apple TV copy of "Dune, Part 2" is coming today, so I hope to sit down and rewatch the movie tonight. Woo-hoo!

Iran attacks Israel

Here's Styx's more neutral commentary. I disagree with most of what he says here.

Scott vs. the bear

If you're upset by the sight of Ballistic Dummy Labs skulls, torsos, etc. being shot to pieces, then please don't watch this. In this video, Scott shows what happens to a bear's skull when it meets the titanic force of a 4 Bore rifle round:

Monday, April 15, 2024

10,000K, 50 km per day, with a 50-kilo backpack???

Headline (via ROK Drop):


A Chinese woman in her 20s who went on a 10,000km long hike turned into a grandmother in her 60s in three months.

According to the Hong Kong South China Morning Post on the 10th, Xasha (28), from Hubei Province in central China, departed from Chongqing City in southwest China in January and embarked on a walking tour to the Tibetan Autonomous Region. With a backpack weighing 50 kilograms, the walking distance so far is about 10,000 kilometers.

Sasha, who walks about 50km a day, receives donations through live streaming online from time to time. When there is a lot of donations, it is about 10,000 yuan (1.87 million won) per month.

A Chinese influencer filmed her hike and posted it on social media. What made headlines was her face, not her hiking scene.

This is because she did not wear makeup and her sunburnt face looked different from her previous appearance. On social media, “Your face looks 58 years old (not 28 years old).”

I don't think I could hack that, especially not in my current debased state. I did, however, leave a comment over at ROK Drop:

A wide-brimmed hat (possibly with the back cut off to make room for the too-heavy backpack) might’ve been useful. She should’ve talked to me. Meantime, it’s too bad people are remarking on her looks instead of encouraging her. A 50-kilo pack sounds like overpacking to me, but it’s an impressive weight to carry for 50 km a day (which is also a super-impressive daily distance).

A 50-kilo backpack is insane: it's a soldier's load, and 50K a day is a soldier's distance. Maybe it makes sense if she's hiking through plenty of empty spaces, but otherwise, I'd say she should plan her walk better and have supplies either in caches or ready to be delivered to various waypoints. There are experts who hike the Pacific Crest Trail with only ten pounds on their backs—including water. Either something is off about the information in this article or the girl is just cuckoo. Anyway, good luck to her.

ADDENDUM: the math is funny. They say she started in January, and the verb tenses between the main article and the headline don't make it clear whether she's done. If she's done, then it's taken her roughly 105 days—assuming no rest—to walk 10,000 km. That's about 95 km per day, almost twice what the article claims. So I assume she isn't actually done yet. And how is she not dealing with blisters and other foot problems, given her load?

Something really doesn't make sense.

Dr. Ekberg hits me right where I live

This can only be viewed on YouTube. Note what Dr. Ekberg says about the relationship between intermittent fasting and treatments like exogenous insulin and metformin (which he views as fairly benign, but see Dr. Jason Fung below). Watch at 2X speed if you want. Meanwhile, here's one of the most important passages from Dr. Jason Fung's book The Diabetes Code:

Your doctor may prescribe a medication such as insulin injections, or perhaps a drug called metformin, to lower blood glucose, but these drugs do not rid the body of excess glucose. Instead, they simply continue to take the glucose out of the blood and ram it back into the body. It then gets shipped out to other organs, such as the kidneys, the nerves, the eyes, and the heart, where it can eventually create other problems. The underlying problem, of course, is unchanged. Remember the bowl that was overflowing with sugar? It still is. Insulin has simply moved the glucose from the blood, where you could see it, into the body, where you cannot. So the very next time you eat, sugar spills out into the blood again and you inject insulin to cram it into your body. Whether you think of it as an overstuffed suitcase or an overflowing bowl, it’s the same phenomenon all over again. The more glucose you force your body to accept, the more insulin your body needs to overcome the resistance to it. But this insulin only creates more resistance as the cells become more and more distended. Once you’ve exceeded what your body can produce naturally, medications can take over. At first, you need only a single medication, but eventually it becomes two and then three, and the doses become larger. And here’s the thing: if you are taking more and more medications to keep your blood glucose at the same level, your diabetes is actually getting worse.

Conventional diabetes treatments: How to make the problems worse

The blood glucose got better with insulin, but the diabetes got worse. The medications only hid the blood glucose by cramming it into the already engorged cells. The diabetes looks better but actually it is worse. Doctors may congratulate themselves on the illusion of a job well done, even as patients get sicker. No amount of medication prevents the heart attacks, congestive heart failure, strokes, kidney failure, amputations, and blindness that result when diabetes is getting worse. “Oh well,” the doctor says, “it’s a chronic, progressive disease.” Here’s an analogy. Consider that hiding garbage under your bed instead of discarding it allows you to pretend that your house is clean. When there’s no more room under the bed, you can throw the garbage into the closet. In fact, you can hide it anywhere you can’t see it: in the basement, in the attic, even in the bathroom. But if you keep hiding your garbage, eventually it’s going to begin to smell really, really bad because it’s starting to rot. Instead of hiding it, you need to throw it out. If the solution to your overflowing suitcase and your overflowing house seems obvious, the solution to too much glucose, which leads to too much insulin, should also seem self-evident: Get rid of it! But the standard treatment for type 2 diabetes follows the same flawed logic of hiding the glucose instead of eliminating it. If we understand that too much glucose in the blood is toxic, why can’t we understand that too much glucose in the body is also toxic?

[ ... ]  

Standard medications do not prevent the progression of organ failure because they do not help excrete the toxic sugar load. No [fewer] than seven multinational, multicenter, randomized, placebo-controlled trials have proved that standard medications that lower blood glucose do not reduce heart disease, the major killer of diabetic patients. We have pretended that these glucose-lowering medications make people healthier, but it’s been a lie. We have overlooked a singular truth: you can’t use drugs to cure a dietary disease.  


Once we understand that type 2 diabetes is simply too much sugar in the body, the solution becomes obvious. Get rid of the sugar. Don’t hide it away. Get rid of it. There are really only two ways to accomplish this. 

1. Put less sugar in. 
2. Burn off remaining sugar. 

That’s it. That’s all we need to do. The best part? It’s all natural and completely free. No drugs. No surgery. No cost.

The literature I got from the hospital before leaving says none of this—which is why I'm on metformin and insulin—and it's one of the reasons why I've said that I think Korean medicine is maybe 20 years behind (parts of) the West, and by extension one of the reasons why I still have trust issues about Korean medicine. One of the many books I'd been given at Samsung Hospital talks about the diet I should follow—a diet full of carbs (a little below the USDA 45-60% daily allowance). Jason Fung, meanwhile, stands at the cutting edge of diabetes research, but I can imagine how resistant Korean doctors would be to his advice. Here, timid conservatism trumps aggressive innovation. To be sure, if I read Fung's book and failed to follow his advice, that's on me, but it doesn't invalidate Fung's insights one bit.

I'm not following Fung's recommended diet right now, but I'm mindful of it. I'm back on Roy Taylor's Newcastle diet (from his Your Simple Guide to Reversing Type 2 Diabetes, suggested by my friend Neil) and will remain there for the next ten weeks. After that, I have to get strict about following keto, carnivore, or something extremely low carb.

One lingering issue to discuss is whether I'm in any position to question the experts given my dire situation. I'd say yes, at the risk of sounding stubborn. I'm not making judgments willy-nilly; I'm arming myself with knowledge from better experts and doing my best to make intelligent decisions about my own care. If I mess up in that care because of my own weakness of character, that's not a knock against the experts in the West that I've read, nor is it affirmation that the Korean docs have it right. And that's about where I stand on these topics.

a week of travail (3)

Friday turned out to be my last day; I'd at least heard that correctly. What I next needed to know was when I'd be getting my "education" so I could have an idea as to when I'd be leaving. Also: there's one important stat that I've forgotten to talk about this entire time: my pulse-ox. A pulse oximeter is a device that slips onto and shines a light through your fingertip, registering not only your blood flow but, more importantly, how oxygen-rich your blood is. It normally goes on an index finger, but I've had it on my middle finger, ring finger, etc.—whichever digit happens to be available at the time. Pulse-ox was definitely one of the numbers the staff was curious about; it's measured as a percent, with 97-100% being good to excellent. Start slipping down to the 92-95% range, and you're probably having a bit of difficulty breathing. I don't know what my pulse-ox was at home when I felt as if I were drowning, but at the hospital, I was around 92%. As long as I didn't exert myself, that range was fairly tolerable for me, but the moment I tried to walk any distance or lift something that would've been easy to lift had I been healthy, I'd feel the tight, invisible hand around my heart and lungs. By the end of my stay, my pulse-ox floated up from 92-ish to about 97-ish. Good enough to let me go, but they did put me on oxygen for a spell on Thursday.

At some point Thursday night, with my roommate having changed from the difficult old man to the introvert, I elected to blast my fan and take a shower. My hospital top had been changed because I'd been sweating so much, but my crotch and entire pants area was redolent with the stink of being unwashed for several days. I didn't shower, but I did the equivalent of having a sponge bath: I used the smart toilet's bidet function, along with some soap, to wash my nether regions. With no towel, I used toilet paper to dab myself mostly dry, then hand-washed my hair and my armpits. My torso was still covered with electronic sensors, so I couldn't do anything about that (by which I really mean that I didn't ask), but after washing my filthiest body parts, I felt some measure of renewal. Couldn't do anything about my underwear, alas.

Now, though, it was Friday morning. I had my breakfast at close to 8 a.m., and I heard that I'd be seeing a doctor (they used the Korean honorific term for professor to describe her—교수님/gyosunim) at around 10:30 a.m., and that I'd be let out soon after. Nice.

I texted my boss (he lives in Suwon, a satellite city south of Seoul) and told him not to bother coming; I'd be done early, and I'd see myself out. The order of events was: get the electronic readers taken off me, see the professor about my education (which I realized would be mostly about my new insulin pen), put my regular clothes back on, walk down the hall to pay my undoubtedly expensive bill, then get the hell outta there. 10:30 rolled around; my chest was free of those sensors although there was still some residual sticker gum leaving goopy traceries on my skin. I got into a wheelchair and was rolled to the elevators. Because I'd been lodged on the 16th floor, pretty much everything except ultrasound was beneath me (ultrasound was also on the 16th). We took the elevator down to 2 and rolled out. I was taken to the Diabetes Education Wing, and within a few minutes, I was greeted by a middle-aged, female doctor who, like almost all of the other docs, immediately asked me whether I could speak Korean.* My noncommittal "A little" allows them to permit themselves the luxury of speaking in full-speed Korean; I catch a healthy percentage of what they say and can guess a lot via visual cues (pointing, gestures, things they write for my benefit), and thus the lecture began.

It was indeed mostly about the insulin pens that would be a part of my life over the next few months. (I don't really need them, just as I don't need the drug metformin despite a prescription for it; you'll see a post on this point later this evening that argues that insulin and metformin only make my problem worse.) But we did go over things like diet (they have ridiculously lax carb standards). I had the chance to practice using the insulin pen on a sort of rubber ball held inside a mount to keep it from rolling; the ball simulated flesh. It took me three practice runs before the doc was satisfied, and she gave me a set of books and pamphlets on diabetes for my edification as I left. I did manage to ask some questions before going, though, and I learned that (1) my problem was definitely not related to COVID,** (2) the insulin shots—which I'd made clear I hated—wouldn't be a permanent thing, but a lot of that was up to me, and (3) repair of my heart would be a matter of following the meds schedule, dieting strictly, and exercising more and more. This did leave me a bit confused, though, because I would've thought the road to recovery for someone supposedly on the brink of death would be a lot less blasé and a lot more specific and strict. Such does not seem to be the case: take zee pills, do zee injections, diet, and exercise without over-straining. No one said I had to worry about being a ticking time bomb who would collapse at any time—no one but that self-righteous doctor at the beginning. So I feel as if I'm in about the same place as I was three years previous. I know that the Newcastle diet had me losing a ton of weight over three months (about 28 kg or 62 pounds), my HbA1c score went down to 5.7 (practically non-diabetic), and my aggressive walking had helped my heart and lungs. Add stairs to that, diet more strictly this time, and that's a winning formula. With many thoughts swimming in my head, I was rolled back to the 16th floor.

Once back on 16, I eagerly changed into the clothes I'd been admitted in the previous Monday evening; a nurse explained the bill-paying and meds-receiving procedure; it all seemed simple enough. My final bill was W1,427,470, less than half my bill from three years ago. I'd stayed at the hospital for less time, and I'd had fewer tests done on me. They had my citizen's ID number, which in theory is linked to my national insurance policy, so I assume insurance played a role in the calculation of price. The place to pay was also on the 16th floor (I wonder whether there's a cashier on every residential floor; they certainly want your money). I was handed some final paperwork that included the dates for my next appearances at the hospital: at the end of this month and on May 24.

Final self-assessment: my pulse was still a bit high, as was my blood sugar, but my blood pressure had been brought under control, and my pulse-ox was near optimal. I had also lost a few kilos. I was still weak and not able to walk long distance, and hefting my Costco bag full of things (it was the boss's Costco bag) was a bit of a chore. Since I'd been given a few weeks' worth of meds, there was no need for me to visit a pharmacy, but I did need to visit a medical-supply store to pick up a constant glucose monitor (in the US, and apparently also in South Korea, there's no longer a need for a prescription to buy this machine). I still haven't done that, but I will do so tomorrow (Tuesday) morning. The CGM tracks your blood-sugar levels all day long; you fasten it onto your shoulder right at the deltoid; it has tiny needles that barely pierce the skin. The moment you eat something, your blood sugar rises, and your body spikes insulin to bring the sugar back down. Insulin isn't the healthiest hormone: it reduces your blood-sugar levels, but it also primes your body to store fat. The object of the game, according to every expert I watch, is to minimize insulin spikes. This is why intermittent fasting and regular fasting are key; if you eat nothing, you have no spikes to worry about.

Having paid up and with no immediate obligations, I took the elevator down and walked out the main entrance, walked across the access roads to the taxi stand, and got myself a cab back to my place, about a kilometer down the street. It would be nice to think that all of this was over, but you and I both know it's not: the hospital will be back to monitoring me, and I'll have to watch for my frequent lapses of will and my post hoc rationalizations, not to mention my diet and exercise regimes. I got healthy once before, though, so I know I can do it again. The question is how to keep the benefits once I earn them.

Welcome to the rest of my life.


*There was one flummoxed female doc who came up to me and gave a speech about something or other in competent but somewhat broken English. When she left, one of the nurses who had witnessed the information dump smiled from behind her mask and chirped, "She didn't know you spoke Korean!" I told the nurse I was, if anything, relieved to get that information in English. Medical Korean is still mostly beyond me. I learn terms as the need arises, but I'm always behind.

**I was left to wonder, though, how I could have been strong enough, pre-COVID, to do 1.25 staircases, then suddenly left weak with heart failure. Maybe I'll ask the next time I'm at the hospital in a couple of weeks.

It was a relief to walk up to my apartment's side entrance.

Spring is here.

insulin pens

tiny black dots = pinpricks from blood-sugar sampling

when onions make you cry

Boo-hoo, you fucking loser.

Joe Rogan on his theory of election interference

sex work isn't "just work"

If you see no moral difference between working in a cubicle all day long and giving blowjobs all day long, then you're morally obtuse:

a week of travail (2)

Tuesday-Thursday, April 9-11, 2024

Monday night saw me moved from the emergency room to a berth on the 16th floor, in the cardiac ward. A lot about this felt familiar, and over the next few days, I ended up going through many of the same routines I had gone through when I'd had my stroke: for example, frequent checks of my blood pressure and blood-sugar levels all through the night. I had one CT scan on Tuesday (a computer voice commanded me to take breaths and hold them, then release) and several x-rays, plus a couple more thoracic ultrasounds. There was no MRI, perhaps because I'd said that lying flat on my back was causing me breathing problems, and an MRI would involve lying flat and still for thirty minutes—something I wasn't able to do. Or, for all I know, there was no MRI because one wasn't needed. I was only rarely subjected to cognitive tests like "What's your name?" and "What's your date of birth?" Mostly, whenever the nurses came by to do procedures, they would simply scan my wristband, which had my info and a bar code on it. Before I moved to the cardiac ward, I was given a set of hospital clothes to change into—the You Are Officially Sick and Belong to Us moment. I had no idea, at the time, how long I'd be remaining at the hospital. I assumed the staff's goal was to stabilize my heart and lungs, then educate me on what I'd be doing once I was out of the hospital.

I was also back on hospital meals, but I was given no choice as to whether I'd be eating from a Korean or a Western menu: the staff simply put me on the Western food, a fact that I took passively, not bothering to request a change to a Korean diet. I recalled that, three years earlier, the Korean menu billed as "for diabetics" included a lot of rice, a carby and seeming unwise choice for someone coming in with high blood sugar. The Western menu turned out to be just as nonsensical: for my first breakfast Tuesday morning, I got a weird combination of leafy-green salad and cereal. It was hard for me to work up an appetite; everything made me feel vaguely nauseous—not because the food was bad, but simply because. The only things I really enjoyed from the breakfast tray were (1) the coffee, which came with Equal sugarless sweetener; (2) a tiny carton of milk; (3) a tiny cup—barely a swallow—of orange juice; and (4) some slices of pre-peeled orange, all ready to be gulped down. There were hard-boiled eggs as well, and I had one but couldn't eat the other. I might have eaten some of the cereal (unsweetened cornflakes); I don't recall finishing it. Along with that first breakfast came a sheet with a list of lunch items; from then on, I could check which food items I'd like. Presumably, everything on the list had been pre-approved, including the carby dinner rolls. Over the next few days, my meals went that way: I'd get my meal plus a check-off list for the following meal. This got me into a prisoner's mentality: after a rough start with no appetite, I started looking forward to mealtimes as the highlight of my otherwise dreary days. 

My boss, being my bohoja/guardian again, visited me periodically. He dutifully went to my apartment to pick up items I'd need to survive the heat and discomfort of hospital existence: my stupid-looking, thick-framed glasses (so I wouldn't have to constantly put on and take off my contacts); my mini electric fan so I wouldn't be sweating up a storm; my cell-phone charger. He even brought me an extra pair of socks; Koreans have a thing about holey socks, but I didn't put those new socks on until my final day.

I was moved, late Tuesday if I remember correctly, to another berth because my boss couldn't be with me 24 hours a day. This was a special berth that was staffed with more people who could watch over me in place of the bohoja. Otherwise, the routine tests continued, including a new one to me: a weigh-in. I'd started off at 118 kg, still 10 kg below my worst-ever weight, and by the time I left the hospital, I was down to 113 kg.

Another thing they had me do was log my urination history. They forced me to piss more frequently by pumping me full of diuretics (chemicals that help expel urine from the body); I got to a point where I was pissing an average of 500 cc every 45 minutes, and on Tuesday, I astounded myself by excreting over two liters of urine. How the hell had I contained that much? I joked to my boss that, one day, they'd cut open my cadaver, look at my internal organs, and marvel at the sheer size of my bladder.

I think I had three roommates in all. One was an old man who couldn't sleep while my fan was on, so I had little choice but to shut the fan off and suffer through the night, sweating. He later apologized for having been difficult, but I waved his apology off while secretly cursing him. The nurses gave me a "cold pillow" during that night to alleviate my suffering; I guessed that they kept the ward's temperature at around 26 or 27ºC, which is great for women, who generally like a warmer office environment, but hell on us guys. My preferred office temp is around 22 or 23 degrees. When the old man left Wednesday afternoon, he was replaced by a very quiet man who was in for cardiac surgery. I never found out what kind, but I've heard that stent installation is a fairly simple procedure; he seemed to be in and out of surgery fairly quickly. His wife proved more talkative than he was; he struck me as even more introverted than I am while the Missus proved a lot more talkative. I didn't get a good look at him until my final day, which is when I realized he was fairly young-looking. The old man and the introvert were my two final roommates; I can't remember who my first roommate was.

Wednesday was a parliamentary election day in South Korea, and my boss and his family had things to do that day, so I had no visitors. On Thursday, my Korean coworker took the bohoja pass from my boss and visited me. I had also heard from the doctors and nurses around me that I was supposed to meet a team at around 1:30 p.m. to get educated about what to do post-discharge. But at around 1 p.m., my blood pressure dropped precipitously; I was woozy and ready to faint, but I fought my way to the bathroom, had another piss, logged the volume of urine (around 400-500 cc), told the nurses how I was feeling, and got treated. By the time my BP had stabilized, there was no way I could make the Thursday-afternoon meeting, so it was rescheduled for the next day. I could've sworn they'd said it'd be in the late afternoon, at around 3:30 p.m., but I guess I misunderstood. (The meeting also turned out to be with a single doctor, not with a team. I really have to improve my Korean.) Anyway, the BP thing was scary; I've never fainted before, and that's only the second time in my life that I've come close to doing so. I did somehow retain enough consciousness to snap a pic of the BP monitor showing a reading of 66/46—the lowest blood pressure I've had in my life, especially after years of being around 180/95 (which is also scary when you think about it).

To occupy myself, and since I couldn't rely on the hospital's WiFi to watch YouTube on my phone, I spent my time reading Lee Child's Persuader, a Jack Reacher adventure novel that will be the template for Season 3. Persuader ended up being the best of the Reacher novels I've read thus far, so I'm hoping Season 3 of the Amazon show does it justice.

Thursday ended like the other days—with more testing and BP/sugar checks, more weighings, and the occasional question about whether I was sneaking any snacks: the staff had gotten my BP down and stabilized (I was a classic 120/80 at one point), but despite their best efforts, my blood-sugar numbers were still very high, so they were left to wonder why the number was so stubborn. I don't blame anyone but myself for that although I still marvel that there are people who doubtless have worse numbers yet somehow avoid being in the hospital.

I'd also heard that Friday would be my last day in the hospital, but I wondered what time of day I'd actually be leaving if I had that afternoon meeting to look forward to.

Stay tuned for the conclusion.

the lowest BP I ever did see

My Korean coworker dropped in late Thursday afternoon.

Nick Freitas interviews Gary Buechler (Nerdrotic)

A long interview, but worth your while. Watch at 2X speed and be done in half the time:

Sunday, April 14, 2024

silat looks to be an interesting martial art

The key to mastering this style of combat seems to be getting inside the opponent's guard:

Part 2 is coming

It's been a lazy weekend of just resting since I got back from the hospital. I'm currently very weak, just like three years ago when I got out after my stroke. I imagine the weakness will last a few days. I'm normally sluggish in my movements, but I'm more sluggish than usual, and most of my muscular weakness feels as if it's in my shoulders: raising my arms above my head is a chore, and carrying anything heavier than empty cardboard boxes feels like a herculean effort. In the meantime, I've barely been able to summon the energy to stand, let alone write an extensive blog post. Expect something tomorrow, but today, Sunday, has been a day of rest. There are some scheduled posts on the way, but the main chronicle won't continue until tomorrow. Sorry and thanks for your patience. I have other posts on the way, too, and they might make an appearance later this week.

Meantime, what can I say? I can say that my breathing problem has mostly cleared up thanks to the care I received at the hospital, but I still have a bit of a stuffy/runny nose. The above-mentioned muscular weakness is frustrating, but I have faith that, as my body finds a new rhythm, things will even out, and I'll regain my energy. I want to get back into the exercise program that I had barely embarked upon before all this nonsense happened: dumbbells, calisthenics, kettlebells, heavy clubs, elastic bands, and animal flow—a little of each thing. I plan to restart the walking sometime this week, probably with some ridiculously modest distance, just to get back into the rhythm. By the end of April, I ought to be walking regular distances. In May, assuming my heart allows it, I'll start back with staircase work, maybe just up to the 6th floor, maybe farther. We'll see what the gods allow.

Just know that I haven't forgotten my duties. Expect more tomorrow.